Attention
I realize I’ve just read a complete page of the novel I’m supposedly reading - twice - and I don’t remember any of the content. So I read it once again and the same thing happens. This is also happening when I try and relax by watching a series on television. Five episodes in, hours of watching, and I suddenly remember I’d seen it all before.
Is everything on automatic repeat now? Endlessly spooling through non-remembered events?
I try again.
It’s difficult. Perhaps I’m tired. Perhaps there are more important things on my mind? I don’t know any more. I decide to take a nap. I can’t sleep.
Attention.
I don’t remember what that is.